Addiction Recovery Program

Sick again today. Sick so much... so much more than I'd like. I'm not myself. No creativity, no love vibes reaching out to others, no craziness (the good kind). General low energy, dark circles, "not really here" kind of illness. I know what to blame it on. Sugar is poison to my body. I know this, so why did I have 4 Rice Krispie treats, 1 chocolate soda, and 1 doughnut today? No doubt about it, I choose this illness. I deliberately put each item in my mouth... I even had to make 2 of them. No one forced them down my throat.

A few weeks ago, I chatted with a friend who was having a difficult time sticking to her diet. "I've turned it over to the Lord." She said. "I told him if he would just make me pause before the bite went in my mouth, I would have the mastery to put it down." Hmmm. Would this work for me I wondered? After I hung up the phone, I asked my Heavenly Father if he really cared about sugar and me. I mean, really, how foolish... why would he care about my sweet fix? The answer I got immediately shocked me to the core.

"Of course I care about your eating and sugar. I have a work for you to do. When "under the influence," you are not able to do and be what I have in mind for you. Your energy is too low and your personality fades. I have a work waiting for you - when you learn to exercise self control over your body so you can do all I have in store for you."

Well then. I guess if he cares, he is willing to help me as I seek help with my sugar "addiction". Though it sounds silly, I just got out my 12 steps program, printed for alcoholics, drug addicts, porn addicts, and gambling addicts.
I have used this to help the beautiful women at the House of Hope. Can it help me?

1. Honesty: Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.
2. Hope: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health.
3. Trust in God: Decide to turn your WILL and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ.

Already sounds promising. Listen to some of these quotes,

"I am encompassed about, because of the temptations ... which do so easily beset me, nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted."-2 Nephi 4 18-21

"And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul..."-Enos 1:4

"Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled" -Matthew 5:6

"Let us . . . come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need" -Hebrews 4:16

and finally,

"They were in captivity, and again the Lord did deliver them out of bondage by the power of his word." -Alma 5:5

These scriptures are really speaking to me. Today. About this problem. About the solution. I am now certain of the direction to take. My eating habits are really a spiritual problem, with a physical manifestation. I can't wait to add the 12 step program to my Carb/Sugar detox program. Won't my Drug Recovery Women be so proud of me!