Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Bye Bye Baby!
I said Goodbye today to the last of the baby supplies. The car seat, the training toilet and the last of the electronic entertainment gadgets disappeared into the Big Brothers Big Sisters collection box.
I admit, there is a bit of sadness in recognizing that a certain part of your life is over. It is a bit complicated admitting that I now I will never carry a biological child of our own. The kids fussed as the colorful items disappeared. "What will our baby boy ride in? See, Meoke wants to keep the car seat. Just let's keep it for a little longer Mo-om."
But, I also feel free. Freedom comes with acceptance. Freedom is accepting the life I have been given, even when it didn't match up with MY initial vison. Freedom is clearing my life and home of the items that do not match up with my current stage of life. Freedom is a bit more space to add those canvases Ladybug and I are going to work on together. Freedom is a deep and abiding LOVE of my Father in Heaven who gently molds and shapes his willful and proud daughter into a lovelier person for his glory. Freedom is looking forward to new experiences, to OTHER purposes, not better, just different.
I explain to my sweeties that sharing our good baby supplies with the less fortunate doesn't mean that we don't want or won't get another baby, it just means we accept life as it IS. So, any of you that find a homeless little baby that needs a great family, we're always available! I'll just have to go get a new car seat.